简单的幸福,是一种心窝里温暖的感觉.即便你绝少说爱我,但我知道我是你的世界.而同样地,我无法想象没有你的生命.

分享生活里的点滴，接受对方的怪癖，必要时体恤和支持对方。彼此的了解，已经成为一种默契。

情人，朋友，知己。you're all these and more. 亲爱的，谢谢你的爱， 这3年在你身边很开心。

maybe i was making a mountain out of a molehill. but my mood that day was quite bad, and i didn't want to show a black face. hope they had fun, and i'll see them again on the 31st, where hong says to have a white elephant gift exchange (go wiki it, quite complicated =p)

had a barbecue yesterday at home with the 姐妹, excluding shell and leen. initially we thought we were hungry ghosts, but then we ended up with too much food. lala had to make a date with her taiwan sausage that she didn't keep, and wing had to take home her marshmallows, which we were too full to even touch.

starting the fire

 

barbecue in action!

 

 

 

the uncooked shitake mushrooms- the one with the hole in the centre is mine lol

 

look at the number of 'dogs'. no wonder we can't finish. but if we did, wow we're really 饿鬼, haha

 

dad's beehoon

 

lala's mum marinated these wings! i like!

 

darling

 

tadah! log cake!

 

the girls=)

 

the final group photo, yay! it was fun!

 

i don't really know how you could bear with me, all my eccentricities and mood swings. but your understanding makes me feel loved. thanks dear.

today- vball plus dinner at sentosa/ harbourfront
xmas- bbq at my house
26th- collect passport (but nowhere to go)

29th got to meet the girls for dinner at waraku.
31st going jw's house for countdown
and sometime next week, meeting tpjc girls for dinner.

busy busy busy, making the most of the last 2 weeks of holidays!

the photos!

the only unblur and clear shot of gen and i. oops, more tries next time k my dear?

the beautiful lit esplanade area

the food we ate yesterday at 85, and also during ktv! the nice japan moshi and chocolate! =)

random photos of us when other people are singing.. haha


present exchange..


our many timed group shots. haha

it's been fun these few days, yay!

and now i have a new phone- Nokia E71. still exploring its functions, but its nice, cause mine is white!! =D

finally played one complete round of mahjong yesterday, but i still lost money. haha, alfred win 2 times already cheat us of about half of our capital le. haha too pro.

then headed to 85 for early dinner before going katong to sing. haha the familiar yellow and blue walls that always serve as the background of our photos (which i'll update later, still charging BOTH my batteries). wa, some of the songs we sing are so old and so hilariously lame, like 爱拼才会赢，潇洒走一回，无言的结局 etc. of course there was also shitwitu. hahha

all in all, a great time last night, and i'm looking forward to the bbq!=)

met up with gen today, and she says i am bad luck cause she'll quarrel before meeting me. haha and i've not seen her for so long, we just kept chatting non-stop. guess there are some decisions that you have to make even though you might regret. but its not always so clear cut for everything, which only makes life so complicated.

pator tomorrow!=) but that has to be after running stupid errands for my mum and maybe my brother. i swear the two of them are getting more alike, acting like they are very busy, and has no time to do small little stuff, which i have to handle for them. grr

mahjong, dinner and ktv on sat! yay, get to exchange presents! haha our yearly tradition =p

sunday's the winter solstice, so dinner at home!

let's enjoy the holidays!!!!

had 5 hours ktv session with some 2b people in the afternoon. sang some unusual songs that we don't normally sing. maybe we should sing more often, so that lt can stop giving up on the high notes n 'hai'-ing!



walked from the cc to 85 for dinner, and all the way i was grumbling about my hunger. and finally we had familiar food in familiar surroundings, but! the seating arrangement of 9 people is a bit difficult for sharing. so, in some ways it was less fun that i expected. oh well, there will be another chance. maybe we've just got to get used to it.

met up with dear old friend QL at ps for simple dinner and coffee. seems so long since we talked properly, barely saw each other throughout the semester. nothing much has really changed, except that the toll of the past semester can be seen on each other's tired faces. and as usual, i didn't bring my camera for any photos.

perhaps fyp for me is just a matter of talking appropriately and at the necessary timing to show the correct level of enthusiasm and concern.

i just want to grad.

fretting about the progress of my fyp, have to tackle the post grad soon. otherwise nothing will ever start.

tired after hj's party. didn't feel as enthusiastic about it as i thought i would, but it still wasn't too bad. could tell hj put quite a bit of thought into planning.

a funeral is one occasion to bring everyone together. but it's so sad to realise that no one else ever thought to organise a gathering just to bring the family together. got to wait till now, to see just how much all the uncles have aged, how much the cousins have changed, how much the nephews have grown. i am saddened that i probably would have to search hard for a hint of recognition in the faces of the relatives i chance upon in the street, and then search my distant memory for the names.

the worst is that there is nothing to say, cause so much time has passed that we can't even pretend to know what's going on in each other's lives. and to think we used to play together, some 14 years ago.

staying up late to 陪太子读书, but i going to knock out soon.

shopping tomorrow, yay! even though i may end up being a walking zombie, but steamboat dinner and girls time together is so inviting.

supposed to play badminton on sat afternoon, followed by hj's party. meeting evan, md and joyce for lunch on sun (forgot if i asked ql to come along). was supposed to meet gen for dinner, but now i have to attend the wake of a relative who i've not seen in a very long time.

i hope not to get assaulted by memories of the family fight.

scared myself shitless by being kpo and emailing the prof about interim report. then accidentally saboed everyone to have to do it by 5th.

thank god for the brave soul who said we haven't done any lab, thank god for the slack prof who said ok.

now i just have to do my research more thoroughly and have something to discuss on 19th dec.

phew. phew phew. my stomach stopped churning.

finally finished my exams. but petrol paper was horrible, keep asking those questions no one would think to study. hope everyone were as lost as me, so the bell curve won't discriminate me.

and to lose 1-2 hours engaging what is to be a futile discussion did not help my grades. not that i want to say, but really: wtf.

So much for trying to compromise. Was I mad? Two party compromise is already hard enough to reach, and yet I was trying for tripartite negotiation. And so I probably deserved to be called disgusting.It must be my fault getting myself in a dilemma.

*****

Well, now I cant be bothered to make an effort already. So I shall stick to my original plans. Go ahead.

the activities are just lining up on their own. and yet they somehow manage to clash, rendering me in dilemmas even as i mug.

why?

sharon ended her exams yesterday, so we went to g2000 to buy clothes on 50% discount. but she lousy, only bought one top one bottom! haha which means i bought a lot! oops. but that was cause i imagine my mum will want to wear my bottoms, so i bought 2 in case. haha

since we ended shopping quite early, we had marche for dinner. and we just kept walking round the restaurant. we didn't seem to eat a lot, but quite full lehz. wonder why, must be cause of the ice cream in the afternoon.

one more paper! then hopefully interim report not too hard to complete, so that i can look forward to bbq and other fun stuff!

it's really true what i say, i never have to walk this journey alone cause i have you with me. who understands me and what i need, and who gives me support and help whenever i need it.

thanks my love

why are we so suay? we are year 4 lehz!!! why do we have to have 5 day week with a 930 monday lecture!!! somemore its just plain dumb to go back to school for 2-3 hours each day!

but its such a huge relief to finally see that damn 160 go towards zero..

nobody asked me for a reason, which made me feel odd.

time together in the midst of the mugging period feels very nice. though we only did 10% of what we planned to do. being loved is so simple, so comfortable and warm. but i cant stop grumbling, cause i don't feel comfortable when it's not my house to move around and be noisy. =p

yay! my skin is back!

therapeutic paper over, left 3 more before i can look forward to slacking.

eeyer, why must i listen to you.

hello and good morning to you.

byebye and good night for me.

been sleeping badly these days, take forever to fall asleep, and yet is awaken by the slightest sounds.

realise i no longer believe the words you said. even simple promises like being on time.

the house is really a home when there's family inside.

going to blog about something very trivial. but it is something that made me very happy.

i've lost count of how many weekends were spent without my parents, who were busy working. i've also bought more dinners and lunches for myself than i would like to remember.

so it's with gratitude in my heart that tonight i have a loving home-cooked meal. though the food was simple, i ate a lot, without being able to wait for my ever-slowpoke mother. haha

simplicity is such happiness=)

madagascar 2 was disappointing, wasn't as interesting as the first movie. but i'm just relieved that the first exam of API is over, with a surprise reminder by Prof Zaher: "you need to revise". haha

looking forward to end of API so that we can watch Madagascar 2! =)

went to the old hongkong cafe at katong village on friday. and saw bruce lee acting as a student. haha


the food there was quite similar to the actual things in hongkong, especially the 鱼旦. the egg tarts are not worth a second try though, bit bland. good thing is that the cafe is 24 hours, so maybe next time we go sing ktv there can go for supper.


ended our simple day with sundae pie at T1 Burger King, and Scrabble Scramble. and for some reason, there is Mickey and Minnie, Donald and Goofy in the airport- some special occasion?

appealing for lunch/dinner buddies cause i've been abandoned in my darkest hours. both parents are working late constantly, and boyfriend is living a nocturnal life. however, my reluctance of not wanting to move far outside punggol is proving a difficult condition to satisfy. haha

have to change my blogskin cause the bandwidth for the sheep pic is exceeded. and now my alignment of photos are all weird.

had a short break the past two days. love you.

the strongest emotion i have is not anger, but disappointment.

waves and waves crushing over me, in the sudden realisation that i'm not good enough.

that i'm probably not indispensable, not even to you.

been studying all day, without much progress. kind of sian!!!! but it's only 9 days to my first paper!

my mum's been coming home after midnight lately, and the past weekend where i didn't really get to see her or my bro has made me a bit homesick. don't know how to describe that feeling, just thought it'll be nice to have everyone at home, even if we may all be doing our own stuff.

looking at how busy he seems to be, bro's 21st birthday photos are never going to be sent out by him till christmas -_-


and these are the photos of the girls' outing..=)

had a good time with the girls just now. the pasta at miss u cafe was quite good, and the cheesecakes at cheesecake cafe was nice! i like the blueberry cheesecake, even though i don't usually like blueberry.. =)

as usual, it's enough just to see them and talk about everything and anything.. we've even got our xmas planned, hope it'll be fun!

finally my stomach has calmed down.. i can finally eat ice cream..

post pics when i get them..

had a busy weekend preparing for my bro's 21st birthday. quite tired with decorating the chalet and taking photos for him. but it's worth it to see him so happy.

then there was the API quiz and presentation which got everyone flustered. the photos i took during lecture of a past year paper was mysteriously eaten up by my cactus photos. i should have uploaded them together, but only the cactus photos remain. and we had to make a frantic attempt to compile our messy slides.

then!!! i had to suffer food poisoning from hall 2 chicken chop. went to see a doctor at 11pm, after more than 5 times of vomiting and diarrhea. till now, i still feel unwell. blea.

haiz, now still have to rush to complete the totally illogical trace modeling. this is a bad week!

=(

really really dislike how you get so worked up over something so small. since you decided it's not important to you, then just don't do it. don't have to get yourself into such a mood that it stresses you out.

damn.

had dimsum buffet with the girls yesterday. but it was disappointing, maybe cause it's a teochew restaurant with lousy service. haha the setting also looked too much like a traditonal wedding banquet. =p

but the chocolate truffle and souffle at max brenner more than made up for it. except that i was too full to sample more than 2 mouths. haha

it's good that we're meeting again soon. one more encouragement before the exams=)








feeling slightly wistful, all cause of a stupid song.

those tears i cried on thursday night rocked my soul. touched that i found who i wanted to fiercely hold on to, and surprised i took so long to realise.

at many times over this past week, little things have come to irritate me much more than they should. as a result, we've been constantly quarreling, and constantly unhappy.

there just comes moments when i am deeply dissatisfied with the status quo of things, and in voicing my displeasure, realise that there is nothing that i can do, and it frustrates me. frustrated cause i've allowed the situation to progress thus far, seemingly compromising, but actually only suppressing my own thoughts.

so i flare, throwing you and i off balance.

finally, when i've controlled my emotions and done an analysis, i often realise that some of the things i am unsatisfied can most likely be resolved in the future. just that i have to be more patient and wait, and in the meantime, not fret and cause unhappiness (even though i really wish it can be addressed NOW).

it becomes a cycle that is very tiring, and it makes me sad that you have to be cautious of speaking to me, for fear of setting me off. it is also kind of self-destructive. i love you for everything you are, but your flaws are also what makes me frustrated.

you don't have to bear with my temper, so i am grateful that you listen to me like nobody else would.

shall i promise to be rational and not get annoyed easily? you know i will only break my promise, i cant help it. but i'll try.

survived our petrol project, the last one week has been hectic and mad. and with some luck, our group actually got borders gift cards. although the amount is unknown, but its still funny to know the presentation prepared last night was actually not bad.

recession = jobless = no $$
what a dismal world today.

a very tiring week, with lessons and project meetings that last past 1030pm. sleep has been very disturbed, and hence my mood too.

looking forward to buffet with the girls soon. let's all hang in there!

had lunch with the girls at TM swensens today. i really hate the weekend crowd. haha but the food was nice, some of us had burgers, whereas the rest opted for the normal (fish n chips) and one was just weird (omelette). haha we even shared a regular earthquake. super full.



















the girls got me a backpack, which they knew i needed. and some faceshop vouchers. of course, the chicky cards weren't forgotten. haha thanks girls=) cya soon!

爱能让人变得伟大，却也能让辽阔的天空变得窄小。

maybe i really do need anger management. i have a short fuse.

but i also really dislike whining.

mad dash to meet tests and projects deadlines, including having to go back for discussion on Saturday.

met gen for lunch today, where she cooked pasta. don't worry girl, it's edible, have some confidence in your cooking. =p

talked a lot, the usual stuff: love, life, parents, work/study. quite long since we met, but it's so nice just to keep talking and talking..

came back home to a fever. 37.7C. pre school jitters? or am i allergic to paint fumes? aching body, dengue?? hmm

awaiting online msn meeting in the meantime.. will anyone show up with research?

you're the only one i can tell all my stupidest things to, without fear. but why, WHY do you like to lick me?

i seriously miss the girls, and i regret my rash impulsive decision, for which i'm berating myself everyday.

recess week is ending, oh god.

photos of the day


my bruise after a cycling accident caused by itchy eye. no, i wasn't at fault, i don't know how to cycle, remember?

unexpected flowers =) thanks for the company!

sorry girls, i was in a mood that couldn't be cheered, and so caused everyone to miss the chance to meet. so so sorry. forgive me? another day we'll meet k?

i realise i can be super antisocial, 搞自闭。 but i've finally sorted out my thoughts and after calming down, wonder why i was so sian for the past few days.

back to normal, i hope.

how could i have said you're not good? when i always only want to run to you.

truth is, i don't know why i am so sian. to the point that i don't wanna meet. please forgive me, but i can't put a smile on my face if i really don't feel happy.

There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single, throbbing moment.

I used to wonder, whether the person who utters “I love you” more often is the person who loves more...


Bemused that I'm labeled mad. It wasn't always like that, for me to keep these words on my tongue.
I once heard them uttered, and all i could do then, was to reply sorry, with tears down my face.
The second time round, i learned to return those words, but always never being the one who uttered them first.

I've been lucky to have been loved more than i loved. But somehow my heart still defied reason, and fell into a situation I didn't anticipate. YOU

Who makes me calm down and listens to all the stupid reasons each time I blow my tantrum. Who gives me all 100% of your time and attention. Who makes simple things done together become beautiful memories. Who accepts all my character flaws. Who uses actions not words to show me your love.

I've journeyed enough to know the three words mean a lot, but they do not mean everything.

Yes darling, I love you.

morning news never seem to be good things. left me feeling disappointed and lost, with no plans for the day. but in the end, i spent my time with my family, so the lack of plans actually turned out to be something good.

i know we're all busy, so i didn't really wanted to make a wishlist, set up dates in advance for any celebration. to know friends remember, that was enough. i really appreciate the effort of each and every one of you=)

this recess will be a much needed breather, even though there are many deadlines and projects to complete.

if this keeps happening long enough, i really just might believe that FYP is super slack.

used to running headlong into completion of assignment submissions. but now that tests are over, and recess week, i feel a bit lost. why?

couples quarrel. maybe during the honeymoon period, they won't. but the happy state of things never lasts forever. a first quarrel will lead to another, and another.

some quarrels may be fiercer than others, but over time, i've come to realise we always become unhappy over the same things. my wanting to spend more time with other people makes you complain. but maybe i just want some space

i get exasperated. i get fed up. i am unhappy that i can't get things done my way. i feel that you are unreasonable, when i only have one week to meet my friends.

but i understand why you feel sad. so i force myself to cool down. and to acknowledge your feelings.

i compromise as i realise that its the only solution. i may have made the decision grudgingly, i may still sound unhappy, but a relationship is about giving and taking. there's no point in harping on who gives in more, ultimately both people need to put in effort to make the relationship work.

tanya chua write nice lyrics. 化学实验

爱一个人 像个化学实验
要先懂得分类 懂它的优缺点
然后随机应变
爱一个人 需要愿意改变
不管晴或雨天 热胀冷缩要练
也真是个考验
我一天一天在发现
爱你还有很多盲点
再给我一点时间 去观察多一些
我想爱你爱得完美 但不确定怎样才对
给你安慰
再给我几次机会 去把它做到对
不是故意让你心碎
是我习惯太无所谓 再给我时间
爱一个人 没标准的概念
但相信这直觉 而别怕去冒险
这才是重点
我一天一天在发现
爱你还有很多盲点
再给我一点时间 去观察多一些
我想爱你爱得完美 但不确定怎样才对
给你安慰
再给我几次机会 去把它做到对
不是故意让你心碎
是我习惯太无所谓 再给我时间
再给我一点时间 去观察多一些
我想爱你爱得完美 但不确定怎样才对
给你安慰
再给我几次机会 去把它做到对
不是故意让你心碎
是我习惯太无所谓 再给我时间

we get on each other's nerves, but i guess that makes us a match.

你是答案-范玮琪

如果世界忘了旋转
谁用春光让冬夜温暖
如果星星不那么灿烂
谁还会向她许愿期待她陪伴
如果今天泪光闪闪
谁让明天值得我乐观
如果怕风少了安全感
谁把我放在宇宙中心宠爱
而你是我的答案最确定的答案
像走在一条花开的路不会错过美满
缘分转几个弯证明我们不会走散
学会用眼神牵手那才浪漫
你是我的答案不变的答案
有了自己的天使做什么都显得勇敢
顺着梦的沿岸只有收获没有遗憾
被握着手心看的未来永远蔚蓝

如果今天泪光闪闪
谁让明天值得我乐观
如果怕风少了安全感
谁把我放在宇宙中心宠爱
而你是我的答案最确定的答案
像走在一条花开的路不会错过美满
缘分转几个弯证明我们不会走散
学会用眼神牵手那才浪漫
你是我的答案不变的答案
有了自己的天使做什么都显得勇敢
顺着梦的沿岸只有收获没有遗憾
被握着手心看的未来永远蔚蓝

而你是我的答案最确定的答案
有了自己的天使做什么都显得勇敢
顺着梦的沿岸只有收获没有遗憾
被握着手心看的未来永远蔚蓝

whole of today, i kept thinking of you. happy that you're mine. =p

spent the whole day drifting in and out of sleep during lectures. yes, just the normal usual boring friday.

kind of really starting to wonder what i want to do with my life, where do i want to go after university, what kind of job i want, when do i want to get married, stuff like that. which is kind of bewildering, cause i realised i aint that sure of what i want.

on a side note, to show you what i've been greedily anticipating...

yum yum.. =)

it's just another normal day. no special celebration, no extra privileges.

but thanks anyway for all the well wishes.. =)

my room is super messy. all for one resume. grr

why didnt the world end?

had dinner at thai express raffles city last night, sort of as an early birthday celebration. too bad sharon had to leave home early to do her beloved's stuff, haha. but still it was a nice evening, and i won at pool 7-4! haha

feel really bad about having to postpone the drama girls dinner tonight. but i have lots to prepare for handing up next week, and 730-930pm is really just too short. especially i haven't seen mindy and joyce for so long. just feel very guilty towards evan, cause i know its not easy for her to notify everyone about the dinner.

wart's getting better=) but i'm still wondering if my eyelids are sunburnt. hahha they remain red since saturday.

looking forward to recess week, when i can finally meet up with everyone.
20-gen
21/22- the girls
23- drama girls
24- back to school for some stupid project consultation

after a good night's sleep, i'm in a much better mood.

in truth, yesterday, i had fun playing volleyball and generally slacking on the beach, despite a bumpy start to the day. it was a much needed rest from the monotony of school and endless work. even though now, i have to start studying for the pharma test. haha, these little breaks are precious.

will the world end on wednesday? what will i be doing then? will the ones i love know i love them?

3 days of unsound sleep. tricky mcq petroleum quiz yesterday. finally one day of good sleep, but still having to wake up early. dislike being awkwardly made to wait, but its not worth brooding upon. played volleyball, got slightly tanned. and had lots of seafood at buffet dinner.

kinda tired. just wanna rest.

hibernation. seclusion.

i have no birthday wishlist this year. and i don't really have time to meet for dinners, what with a horrible timetable that ends 730pm on mon, tues, thurs and fri.

beginning to think the best present is to sleep more. beginning to think that simple gatherings are already enough.

don't buy me stuff, just meet to talk talk talk and talk?

i hate scbe, so ulu i don't see anyone. dislike hysys.

met evan for breakfast at 9am today, very 想不开。don't really know why we decided to meet too, since we didn't really talk very much about our own lives and stuff we're doing. guess we just missed each other, and needed a friendly face to brighten up a dull week.

as i grow older, i treasure old friends more. they are the ones i don't have to explain much to, the ones who don't find silences awkward. the ones who i miss occasionally, and who make a short talk much more heartwarming. they are the ones i instantly warm up to, the ones who make me feel 亲切. to grow older together, and to discover the changes in thinking and personality of each other, to me, is one of the most honoured things a friend can do.

the closest friends need not meet often, but think of each other occasionally in the heart.

missing lots of people right now...

其实，躺在你的怀抱里睡着的感觉，很舒服。仿佛找到一生的依靠，幸福了。

可是还是睡不好啦！！

wall.e was a nice show! all his expressions and the innocent way he makes friends is just so cute=) also embedded in the show was a reminder to love our planet Earth more, and not harm it by generation trash and pollution.

woke up thinking i could slack, only to check my email and realise that i've also not escaped the torturous dreaded proposal writing. blea. hopefully my fyp can finally start. one test to study for next week, and probably have to fret over design group project 2. hopefully will know how to do it, just like project 1! haha, the ecstasy of finally completing an assignment on our own =)

昨晚很开心. simple happiness. 其实昨晚并不特别，跟之前的百多个约会一样，不过吃饭看电影罢了。可是一整晚，穿着你的外套，牵着你的手，我的心就是感觉特别温暖幸福。也许是因为许久没有这样难得的机会了。难得早下课，所以侥幸地，还有戏票可买。难得我吃到我一时兴起想吃的披萨。as though the stars aligned just for us, and made everything work smoothly in our favour.

开学以来，一直处于一个很烦躁的状态。对一切都觉得很讨厌，很多作业也觉得力不从心。几乎3个星期的病更是雪上加霜。

但昨晚，内心的混乱平静了下来。或许是因为今天不用上学，暂时可以不去想这些烦人的事，做只鸵鸟。或许是因为在陌生的校园里看到了熟悉的老朋友。或许是因为昨晚你在我身边睡着的那份安宁，让我了解万事还有你。

year 4 is so depressing... lots of things to do, but either i don't have any idea how to do it, or don't have the ability to do it.

gancheong is my way of life. blea

i hate school! :( endless deadlines and tutorials that are impossible to solve!

i need to run into more lovable people in school.. :(

my something exciting didn't turn out to be exciting at all, not even a wee bit. MY HAIR IS STILL LONG! 不喜欢！ :( :( :(

played badminton yesterday with the girls, dislike the saturday crowd at the sports hall. so noisy..

been quarreling and quarreling.. don't know what's wrong with me. don't mean to, but nevertheless still say mean things, get easily upset for meaningless reasons. haiz

suddenly missed someone today. someone i never thought i'd miss. hmm.. should spend more time with him when i can. this saturday then! =)

went to see polyclinic doctor today for my ailing body. and so i decide to condemn my stupid private practice doctor le. hmph, cheat money and never make me well.

doing mad stuff tomorrow, meanwhile i'm madly watching 命中注定我爱你. life's so boring!

白天觉得自己受委屈，晚上觉得自己太过任性。

幸好我已不再意气用事，否则一定做出会后悔的事。

现在的我，很自私。能不能只想被呵护？

Michael Phelps has won his eight gold in the Beijing Olympics 2008. That guy's incredible!

Looking forward to the Women's Finals in Table Tennis tonight. GO SINGAPORE!!!=)

another week at school just passes by so fast. still struggling with my horribly blocked nose, and phlegmy cough. blea..

nothing much interesting in my life to blog about, apart from the fact that it's going to become quite unbearable soon, i guess.

oh well.

诸多埋怨，依然爱你。知道你会陪我走过未来人生的每一刻。

不喜欢星期天出门，更别说是当我病得奄奄一息时，还得千里迢迢搭巴士。满腹埋怨，责备自己一开始的自作聪明。早知今日，何必当初。原来我并没有学乖，依然是那个努力维持2人日夜颠倒生活的傻瓜。

其实累，因为觉得自己在牺牲。为了你，编排出时间见面，就算是少了与家人一起的时间，就算是我只想无所事事。为了你日夜颠倒的生活，我必须陪你一起晚归，感觉身不由己。因为你爱睡，我必须叫你起床，即便逻辑上，在外头见面比较合理。

当然，在一起也有开心时。只是当我沉沦于痛苦时，开心的时刻就被抛诸脑后。

the first week of lectures have highlighted a focus on projects this semester. i suppose it will be the same for the second semester.

don't like project work, cause you have to find good group members. and being VERY anti-social, it seems that most other people would already have their preferred groupings, whereas i'll be left to find other people to make up the numbers. project work can be easy to score, cause of the divided workload, but it also depends on the quality of the group members, and the difficulty of the project.

don't know whether to take on 3 core electives this semester, or postpone to next semester. don't know how will fyp be like. a lot of uncertainties, making me unsettled.

fell sick, feeling lethargic. hope things get better..

真的希望能把心想的付诸行动，告诉你，庆幸有你爱我。

went for checkup, facial, and baked some chocolate cookies today. feel like i've recharged. but it's only day 3 of the new semester. lol. and most probably, i'll never have any more free wednesdays.

BOO!

the first day of school after 9 months, i'm totally drained. if this is what the future days will be like, i'm so dead. fyp seems hard, pharmaceutics seem to require a lot of memory work. the other subject i don't know what's happening. 730pm evry night.

tired to the point of not wanting to argue, willing to pretend that things will be rosy in the morning after a night's sleep. lost my stand to express my thoughts long ago, and now, i just don't feel like talking. words cant do anything anymore. so i shall just let it be, and continue not knowing what i am doing.

-temporarily emo-

school is really starting tomorrow. still in a state of denial. totally unprepared.

worried about year 4. final year project, graduation, work. blea...

i know you need me, as much as i need you, or maybe even more. and i hope we learn to draw on each other for strength while maturing together.

the last week before school starts. trying to do lots of things, but not very successful. table still looked like the site of a bomb blast.

had californian pizza kitchen on tuesday night.

sicilian pizza and mushroom ravioli.


baked cookies on wednesday. we gorged ourselves silly with titbits during ktv...

finally all the 7 girls get their photo taken!

badminton, table tennis yesterday, and dinner with evan today. that girl's changed in quite a few ways. but it's all for the better. just hope that even as she becomes more mature and experienced in both job and life, part of the her i know will still remain. and somehow we didn't take any photos. -_-

baked cookies on wednesday, after failing to go for morning swim due to a heavy downpour, and after meeting the two accountancy graduates to shop for formal wear.

the cookie mix is from daiso, and it tastes of vanilla. but we added m&m to increase the flavour. different from the previous cookies i made, this one required making it into a dough before cutting out the cookies. and i had difficulty in trying to get that dough. it was consistently too crumbly. until we decided to just give it a try. haha and this is the result! =)


played volleyball yesterday at sentosa. prior to meeting up, there was a commotion on whether there'll be rain. in the end, decided to just try our luck, since the rain might clear up after a while. it didn't -_- but we still played in the rain. beach volleyball was much harder than the grass volleyball we played at the chalet, cause the sand slows us down, and there would occasionally be winds that spun the ball.

i didn't get to touch the ball much, and i wasn't very good at playing. but i still had fun. maybe we should really meet once a month to do this. haha but somewhere nearer ba.

we bully poor yisheng aka pigu. i was just harmlessly covering his feet with sand cause i was bored, but it turned out to be like this. haha luckily he's a good sport=p

the part of the group that was still there at 8pm.

had vietnamese food for dinner, where we were really starving. va va voom cafe somewhere near beach road..

grilled pork chop rice, hue spicy beef noodles, chicken wings, spring rolls, cinnamon white coffee (dripped the vietnamese style) and lotus flower tea.

i'm kinda exasperated yet amused at my having to buy stuff in duplicate.

original kfc chicken.

seldom at home so early. haha but today was a very fun day. played two hours of badminton, followed by one hour of watching other people play table tennis. and then i won money at mahjong! haha yay!!

going play volleyball tomorrow at sentosa, so excited! =)

damn school's starting again, and i still want to slack!

决心不再那么38了。是时候敞开心胸，大方一些接受与面对周遭的人与事。不要心胸狭窄，慢慢观察了解，才做出评论。

只有你，敢对我说出这样的话。只有你，能一针见血一语道中。
也只有你，如此了解我，让我无法为自己辩解。

still not spending much time at home even after the chalet. tired and sore. arms feel sore, back and neck feels like they're breaking. and my shoulder feels like its on the verge of dislocation. so scary. shall camp at home tomorrow, unless i mad, and decide to join the 2b guys for basketball.

tried Sweet Salty Spicy at Rail Mall yesterday for dinner. A cosy little Thai eatery that has had some good reviews. the food was nice, and the staff were quite friendly and helpful. not a bad place for quiet evenings. tried 5 things there, and i must say they're nice!


pad thai, mango salad, chicken skewers, tom yam seafood soup, and chocolate cake.

watched the dark knight at vivocity today, and batman is very cool! his gadgets and attitude is 帅, and the joker gave a good psychotic performance too. then we headed to ikea, where i only bought 1 scented candle (lavender) that i hope can help me sleep. we went queensway shopping centre too! cause i wanted to buy a haversack for school, but they were all too ugly, or too big for me. sad =(

dinner was at the orchard TCC that looks like a french cafe! haha the decor was nice, but it has the effect of not really encouraging lingering, dunno why but that was what i felt.



oreo mocha, mango yogurt, macaroni gratin and meatball gratin

spending money like i'm living it up. but i do want to save some money too, in preparation for rainy days. and i really panic when i feel like i spend too much.

need some time and freedom, hate that school's starting again so soon.

finally the 4 days 3 nights chalet has ended! extremely tired. aching all over. i think i'm getting old. haha

we girls had the whole chalet to ourselves for the first night. and we had a lot of fun planning the meals, and also playing uno, cards and mahjong. =)

this was our dinner on the first night. pizza made from scratch, and then grilled with our selected toppings. yumyum!! out of shape, but crispy and delicious.

our lunch was angel hair pasta with broccoli and sausages in tomato sauce. very nice too!

our first chalet together, hopefully we will have more!=)

2nd and 3rd night was 2b chalet. the guys arrived in batches, and so the fun did not start till much later. a bit of regret, but i guess it was still ok. regret too that not everyone could come and stay, but i'm quite touched at the effort of those who came.

some random photos, part of it shows our home-cooked lunch, and pizza dinner. (pizza again!=p) and too bad we didn't get to take the volleyball photos, it was lots of fun! but there'll be more chances hopefully.

basketball and group photos! but not the complete group, haiz

feel like i didn't plan well enough, slight disappointment.
sorry that jocelyn couldn't contact us.
don't really have much to say about people who said they will come but didn't.

i need my friends, some space too. can't bear this repeating over and over again. i don't like.